Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Boston United




Living in the place that was just shaken with terror is a surreal feeling. Boston is a special place. People are more passionate about this place then any other place I have ever seen, all the way from their history to their sports! Their passion at times can be taken as rude and over the top but that's actually now something I'm learning to love because after watching this tragedy that passion and fire gets stuff done!
There has definitely been a change in the air. I wish I could have snapped a picture of all the little things I have been noticing that shows how the people of Boston are rising up together to not be beaten by this. A few moments I wish I could have captured were; a man all by himself waving a big sign on a freeway over pass that said, "WE ARE ONE.", and a man lowering a flag to half mass reverently. The one that struck me most I saw while driving through a very busy intersection in town. At this intersection there are a lot of roads being thrown in to this one little place. There is always a few homeless people who are regulars. Usually you notice everyone ignoring them and driving on by, but yesterday was different. There was a man stopped at a light cheerfully and genuinely speaking with one of the homeless men while he waited for traffic. I was touched by his smile as these two spoke but most of all touched by the fact that he reached out to shake this mans hand. Something so small. The people of Boston have been changed. Everyone's a little kinder, a little more reverent. You can feel the kindness and concern for others in the air. It's a beautiful thing. In the wake of tragedy these people are standing united and strong! They aren't letting this bring them down. I'm grateful to be here during this time to learn from these people and have these experiences. There will ALWAYS be a special place in my heart for Boston.






- Dani, Lance, Mason

Thursday, April 4, 2013

Lucky Girl






The last few days I have been completely withdrawn from everything. About once or twice a month I hit a time where I just feel numb and my emotions are super heightened and I feel like hiding in my bed under the covers so I don't have to feel or deal with anything. Luckily I have Mason that keeps me going so I don't end up wallowing for days. I just have to keep telling myself that this always passes and will be over soon.
The last couple days I feel like I haven't been able to function and everything puts me in tears and I just want to stare at a wall or sleep. Normal things that I feel like I can handle on a normal bases now become the end of the world. For instance today finding out that LDS Family Services is fazing out their adoption services. This crushed me and in the end I know as of right now there is nothing to worry about and everything will work out but it's hard not to be scared. I should mention that its not till November that I should really worry about this. I also never get homesick but am sure feeling it bad right now! I just keep telling myself I'm going home in June.
I'm so grateful for Lance and feel like one lucky girl! He is always quick to step up to the plate and take on the household tasks and care for Mason. If I need some alone time he will either take Mason on an adventure or let me run away for a bit. He also makes sure the house is cleaned cause he knows that if the house isn't clean during these moments of stress it makes my anxiety hit a breaking point. He does all this along with trying to juggle school. He never let's me see if he's stressed during this time, which is amazing cause lets face it I'm hard to deal with when I'm in one of these moods. Today I'm just feeling really grateful that I have him by my side until it passes and even after. Love you Lance.
- Dani