Today, I am feeling incredibly blessed and know that Heavenly Father is looking out for me and my family.
My therapist has kept urging me to start a grateful journal so that I can have some good things to focus on daily. I have been ridiculously lazy, but today I have to give thanks.
Struggling with major depression and anxiety has taken a major toll on my family and I. Things are finally starting to look up. Before I didn't think I was ever going to feel happy or at peace ever again. I'm now seeing a little light at the end of the tunnel. I know I'm not out of the woods yet, and that their will still be hard days but I have hope now. I didn't have that before.
I was starting to get nervous about Lances OBGYN rotation coming up. It was going to be in Salem which is about 35-40 minutes driving. He would've had to have left probably around 3:30-4:00 am every morning, 6 days a week. He wouldn't be leaving the hospital till very late. This concerned me for so many reasons. I was worried about Lance driving that far on so little sleep. Lance doesn't do well driving if he's tired. The gas was really going to hurt us. I was concerned about not having a car for 6 weeks. I don't do well if I am stuck with no car. I feel trapped. I was worried because I just started to get better and knew that with Lance being gone so much, I would have a hard time. I was terrified that I would take 10 steps back for every 1 step forward.
With all of these things being concerns of mine, Heavenly Father has calmed those fears. Last week my visiting teacher and friend told me they had a car that they have been trying to sell. She is going to let me use her car and take the for sale sign down for as long as I need it. This was a HUGE burden lifted off my shoulders. The blessings continue with people offering their help with whatever I may need during this hard time. Today Lance received an email saying the hospital in Salem does not have a place for him. He will now be doing his rotation at Lahey Clinic in Burlington. Burlington is only 10-15 minutes away. I couldn't believe it. I feel so blessed and know we are being taken care of!
It won't be an easy rotation for Lance. This hospital has a reputation for being extremely hard on the students. They are also very tough on their grading. While all of these things may be trying for Lance, we can't have everything. We will take it.
I'm going to continue to count my blessings!
- Dani, Lance, Mason
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4 comments:
Your honesty is a blessing to all of us. :)
Tender mercies from a loving Father. You are definitely being taken care of, Dani. I'm so glad to hear how things are working out for all of you. Love you!
I'm with Kim. He watches over us during out most difficult challenges. I hope things continue to improve for you and that things go as well as possible for Lance during this rotation and beyond. Love you all!
You sweet angel, I understand what you are dealing with and I also know that no one else understands our trials or why they are hard for us. Thank goodness for our Savior, who really does know and understand, he can be a great friend.
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